It's been about a month since my last post, and so much has happened since then. I don't really know what to write about but I'll try my best to put things into chronological order rather than jump about from place to place, but I can't promise anything.
Things have changed. Some wise woman in some crazy American show once said that the time it takes to get over someone is the time that it takes you to find someone new. This may not be exactly true, but it definately has something to it. I seem to have found someone to hold onto from the most unlikely place. In fact, he ticks every single box on the list that I have written out when HE dumped me. In fact, he thinks I'm pretty awesome too. He seems to be just the thing I need, maybe right now, maybe forever, I'm not entirely sure. Actually my head is a massive mess.
Well, we properly met at a free house gathering, where we were both relegated to sleep downstairs, and we had some mass chat about so many things, untill the sun came up. It was pretty amazing and I knew straight away I wanted to see him again. After that there were a couple of movie sessions (He's seen Funny Face, and not because I mentioned it nor did we watch it together) and a couple of trips to some restaurants. That is untill I had to leave for Lithuania.
Here, I've been pretty much partying non stop. I love going places with my favourite cousins, so happy that they understand me completely in everything that I do, no matter how crazy I go they're always there to out-crazy me. That's a really awesome feeling to have, when people don't stare at you like you're bloody crazy when you have a miniscule brain meltdown and start doing stupid shit. We went to the seaside, only me and Aiste this time, and had the bestest time. Going to restaurants, watching sunsets, meeting up with the locals. The most memorable night must be when I decided that we should stay up all night so that we don't miss the sunrise. We were armed with a load of booze and two guys to keep us company. The night was spent watching the stars and laughing about anything and everything.
I wish I could still dream on stars, or see them without thinking about Liam, it hurts so much. I can't trust them anymore since they have brought me so much misfortune and so much pain, so much for believing in such things. They're only pretty fleeting moments that could never last, not in this lifetime.
As the sky grew lighter and lighter the stars dissapeared and the whole world started changing colours. From black, to blue, to purple, to pink, to yellow. I can't explain such euphoria. After waiting for hours and being so unbelievably cold, it was finally here. The sunrise. The beautiful, delightful, sunrise. We all jumped about like little kids to the sight, unaware of how awful we looked or how tired we were or anything else for that matter. The soft rays hit everything in sight and coloured it with the most majestic of colours.
I don't think I've seen sunrise before, not like this. It was quite definately the best moment of my new life so far. I hope it's not the only one. After the sun came up we headed home as fast as possible and got into bed, the most comfortable bed and slept untill late afternoon.
Our time by the seaside was cut short by the fact that Aiste was to become a godmother, and we had to head to her village, and I was to document every single moment of the day. We rushed about like crazy buying presents and candles and meeting people and then driving there and doing our make-up and hair. It was crazy, the poor little girl had had no sleep since the morning and was way too tired to be christened, and therefore had a lollipor and a bottle of drink in every picture. Not ideal for a photographer, but apart from that everything went pretty swimmingly. Later that night we all got super drunk with family members and then the next day I returned to Kaunas.
Spending the evening with the local "grungers" was pretty interesting, since it was Monika's birthday. I had to be picked up super early by my parents though since it was sunday and the last bus had already gone by the time we even started drinking. And today has been pretty uneventful.
I'm pretty happy right now, I know there's a lot of things ahead that I am going to be doing, and that's keeping me happy. Today the hurt came back. It's been three fucking months and I'm still in pain. Much less so than before, and It's a lot more rare. I like the fact that I sort of have someone new. I also like the fact that maybe, just maybe, a happy end is waiting for me somewhere.
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